if i say i am alright .. i am lying .. i am just acting .. its veri tired .. i reali hope u could be my side .. or come back .. but i noe even if u do, things wun be the same .. so different .. i guess all could i do is to cry and cry till i am tired ... mayb in the first place everything is wrong .. WRONG .. perhaps ba .. i decide to go back sg onli next yr .. till my last last day here ... i will just work and work .. perhaps ba .. work and forget abt my illness .. i dun wan to think of anything .. if die then just die .. i dun wan to go for any operation .. no .. what is the point ...