time to update my blog once again .. pspsx to my readers .. hahah .. anw .. ytd was my off day .. went shopping ..
saw a gucci wallet i love to bits ... saw a LV bag i love to bits !! my heart is so itchy to get these two things asap .. probably just b4 i go back sg .. and gotta get a sling bag for my mum and a wallet .. my mum so greedy lor! wan a LV or gucci wan .. lolz .. normal brand cannot .. muz exp de .. zzz .. then need to buy presents for my bro and sis in law .. and angie ..... my besttttttt fren !!!!! angie .. what u like me to buy for u .. wanted to get u dior necklace .. but too exp for me to afford .. any other thing? i buy u the issey mikae okie?? the perfume u told me few weeks ago .. happy time tend to end fast ...
today so sux .. hate my manager ... if its like tt in sg, i would have jsut quitted .. sux .. reali sux .. if not for my money and things i lkike .. i would have immediately quit once i pay finish my debt .. just sux .. i HATE IT!
ahh .. but anw .. my flight should be confirmed on 3rd nov 2008 .. hee .. gonna ask my uncle to buy for me .. hmmz .. anw .. need to slp early .. tmr i need to do so much things .. sux .

well .. mayb my parents wun be comin uk .. but i am going back sg at oct for sure!! cause i need to plan for my finance ..
if they come here, my mum need to retire .. then in future .. i need more money to support them .. its probably not an issue .. i cannot give them luxurious life .. but a stable life .. =) .. no worries for a roof and meals .. whaha .. i still need money for studies .. and transportation .. anw .. i need money for my cpu! and LV !!! whaha .. but if i cannot let them come here .. i feel bad somehow .. aw .. what can i do .. i dun wan to stay here anymore .. i reali miss them alot alot alot .. sobxsobz .. hmmx .. mayb just lawkawii? as long as we are happy .. anywhere is fine for us lorx .. heeheez ...
so fast .. this week is going to over .. one of my collugue resign ... not working .. sux .. tot of planning gg to my uncle place end of may .. sux lor .. cannot lerx .. haiz .. dunno lahx ... see how ..
tired for this whole week .. no tired .. wah lao eh ..
read one of my fren fren blog .. she changed her bf .. her last ex was tgr for 4 yrs .. they seemed so stable .. but .. haiz .. perhaps love is so unstable lor .. reali wan to find my last Mr Right .. no more changes .. tired of it .. ditch ppl gettin ditch .. haiz ..
nd to slp .. ta ..

its kinda sad .. next week i have no off day .. cause one of my colluages wanna take off .. sux .. but anw . had 2 days off last week . so ... its alrights .. =) ..
gonna buy air tickets for returning sg on june .. and sending money back for my mummy and daddy to come over .. yuppx .. which is ard oct .. yaya .. in 5 mths time i am gonna see them .. in aby 6 mths time .. i can see my whole family and frenz !! yuppie .. so happie .. whee .. its about 460 pounds for one person .. alot sia .. what to do .. my dad says go there for what .. he just want go malaysia .. enuff ler .. lolx .. but anw .. gonna bring them to lawkawii the next time .. perhaps next yr .. wanna relax myself ..
anw .. recently was talking to GUY A and GUY B .. they are my ex . GUY A hurt me so much last time .. i reali took so much time and effort to forget about him .. tho i know he had a gf that time .. but .. i dunno why .. i still so concern abt his beings .. sigh .. sickening ..
GUY B hurt me so much .. i came on giving in to him . but he .. all he said was . give me more time .. and things will be fine .. but then .. time again and again .. gave again and again .. nothing happened! what could i do .. GUY B wanna be with me again .. tho he is not a rich nor handsome guy .. but to me .. he is someone perhaps can give me a good life bahz ... but .. what had happened last time .. i not sure even we are back tgr .. can i still put in so much effort .. cause i am reali tired of gettin the same result once again .. relai tired .. GUY B said he wan to sponsor me study .. he hopes to be the one sponsor .. i reali dunno .. but anw .. just read GUY C blog .. my feelings in my heart is in a mess .. reali a mess .. why i can't cry out . i dunno .. perhaps .. i had no more feelings .. perhaps .. everything is just a bad dream .. a nightmare which i shld wake up from it .. i reali in a lost .. why does heaven playin on me ..
please .
please ..
please ...
let me go ....
i am reali tired of it .....
hopes were dashed time again and again ......
no more please ......
please ....
let the next one be forever and ever .....
no more of the past ....
thats all i request ....
我真的累了..
不想再继续你所说的游戏 ....
放过我吧 ...

talk to mummy ytd night .. the way she tells me things .. i knew things are going on wrong .. so i din wan to continue our conversation further .. cause it will bring us no where .. will end up quarrel .. just like last time .. and hurt our familyship .. called her .. indeed .. she is crying .. i knew it .. i knew she misses me .. i reali miss her so much .. i wan to hug her so much .. the past few yrs .. all i did when she is beside me was to be playful, stayed away from home, making her angry .. now she is not here .. all i wan to do is to be a good girl, stay at home, making her happy everyday .. i hope heaven will give me more more more more more chance to be filth to her .. so does my daddy .. i realli reali do love and care about them alot .. i used to dunno how to think .. be childish .. but ever i came here ... being alone with my family love .. i realise i am so fortunate in singapore to have my brothers and parents loving me unconditionally .. they are the best .. they will forever be with me no matter what ..
ok lahs .. go slp ler ..

talked to angie just now online .. suddenly have so much things to buy .. LV bag, gucci bag, new div cpu, new phone ..
it will total cost me so much money .. perhaps .. one cannot be so greedy .. hahah .. mayb just one either LV or gucci bag .. if i spend so much money .. my parents will sure angry .. i noe lahx .. but its just what i hope mahz .. haha ..
hmm .. gonna study .. which will cost another amount of money .. haiz .. sux .. perhaps study here longer is better ..lolx .. hmm .. my boss wanna me do counter ler .. lolx .. kanna feel stress like what mike had said .. haiz ..

found out he got a new gf .. why .. but anw .. i knew it is going to happen .. i am not a small kid .. suan ler .. since he is going fine with his life and lao po .. i am going on fine with my life .. to think abt it .. actually we dun suit in the first place .. our tots are diff .. we look loving cause i tried not to mention my unhappiness .. anw .. i intend to go back to sg this end yr to study .. perhaps i will meet my mr right? whaha .. who knows .. =) ..
going back either on oct or dec .. oct because my manager come back from malaysia .. dec because after x'mas .. lolx .. eversince the kitchen ppl know i decided to go .. they tried to stop me and making me laugh and happy .. i know they are nice ppl .. but .. 人们总是会有不散的宴席。mayb the next girl will be more fun?? haha .. hope so ...
missing my daddy lots! and of cause my mummy and brothers lahx!