what doesn't meant to be mine will not be mine eventually .
haiz .
i dunno what to do .
why do i makes everyone hates me ..
haiz .
tried to cut my wrist on mon ..
but i failed to die .
why .
why muz u save me .
why .
u dun love me then dun fucking save me .
juz let me die .
haiz .
i dunno .
i realli dunno .
juz wan to leave this world and not thinking of other things .
too tired .

i wan to get married suddenly .
so pretty wearing the bridal clothes .
haiz .
but who will want to marry me .
haha .
nobody .
lol .
told my frenz i have no bf .
nobody believed me .
cause they all tot he was my bf .
but actually he wasn't .
i was juz too "cheap" .
haiz .
dun say le .
i only hate one person ...
and that person is ME .
i reali hate myself .
hate myself till i want to leave this world .
i am too tired living in this world .
juz want everything to end .
who actually understands my feelings truely and deeply .
nobody .
haiz .
i ask myself .
if my mum tt time when having me,
and she abort me .
how good will it be .
i wun be in this earth suffering .
sigh .
bye!

i din know tt my decision tt time will affect so many ppl .
now so many ppl hate me .
haiz .
i hate myself too .
juz so sucks .
haiz .
is my decision wrong then?
i dunno .
just wan more money also wrong .
hai .