i and him have been tgr for a month .
i think so .
cause .
we doesn't seems to have an official date tgr .
from the start ,
we seems to be like a couple .
going out to eat and shop .
but din hold hands or what .
but only one month ago .
i dunno .
he is a nice guy .
a reali nice guy .
but in his heart does he only love me .
or he loves more than one .
i dunno .
i dun wish to guess no more .
i am tired .
i just wish to be happy every single day .
i am not going to bother what is going to happen .
cause if i nvr think of all this,
we are reali very xin fu de lors .
happy couple tgr .
but .
somehow .
i feel he is two headed snake .
i dunno.
how i wish my six sense is wrong .
my collugues all said we both very match lors .
they all can see he so care about me and love me nors .
but .
i dunno .
perhaps .
i am comparing .
comparing him to wq .
haiz .
two days ago .
i am so dead fucking drunk .
that is my second time drunk .
i rmb my first time .
is at sg kbox .
haha .
i was so dead drunk tt day until i took a knife and chopped the chopping board .
put my head in the gas stove and wanted to kill myself .
perhaps i reali hate myself .
i shou and scream .
shouting for his name .
wanting him to come .
he just left a few sec ago lahs .
i dunno .
what am i thinking .
didi i reali love him .
or i dun love him but .
just treating him like an entertainer who can entertain me when i am bored .
but why .
why do i so bother about his actions.
and os worried about him when he nvr sms or call me .
sigh .
suckx .
i think i am pregnant .
i dunno .
missed my period for a week .
so scared .
about the pregnancy kit .
haiz .
dun wan to test .
i am scared of the result .
sigh .
what is he thiking .
i reali dunno .
haiz .
i am so frustrated .
hope to kill myself and end everything .
ta .
go smoke .
so fan