i am so proud of myself .
ytd i was all alone at home the whole day .
i cried and cried after i seen the sms from his phone .
but when he came back from outside ytd night,
i look at him.
i managed not to think and cry!
i am just so proud of myself .
from now till may,
i am jsut going to enjoy myself .
sat is valentine day .
i dunno what will he get or do for me .
i guess nth ba .
i wun think .
i guess i am used to him by my side now le .
cause without him snoring or at the hse,
i felt so weird .
haiz .
but anw .
nvm .
i sitll love him .
but .
i will slowly slowly let go till i go back to sg.
i WILL NEVER EVER force him to answer any of my doubts .
or i wun suspect him anymre .
coz i am too tired .
i felt so terrible .
i just let it go .
be it he just treat me as a sex object ,
girlfriend,
partner,
friend,
collugues,
or what ever .
it will NEVER EVER be a problem .
it is hard .
but i can do it .
jyxjyx sherin!
yaya !
talk to raymond ytd night .
miss the days we had in his office .
tho everyday quarrel and quarrel and cry cry .
but .
it is a nice memory to rmb .
and i will rmb .
how he cooko for me,
bring me for supper,
my bday chalet,
etc .
it is a sweet but sad memory .
i told him,
last time u have me u dun treasure,
now u dun have me, u said u want to have me .
its all too late .
perhaps at this moment nia .
yes, i talk at his hse with him ard .
cause if he is not going to bother what and how i feel,
then why i muz bother!
go fuck urself man!