can anyone kindly explain to me why .
why i felt so lousy even tho i expect he will leave me alone on v day at home .
why i still feel so upset even i told myself not to bother .
seriously .
i dunno .
i really dunno .
my heart breaks into into millions and millions of pieces .
i am so upset .
i tried to b happy .
but .
i somehow cannot do it .
i know he is meetin tt girl for 100% sure .
i am really very upset .
heart is crying .
but there are alrdyx no more tears from my body and eyes .
haiz .
what could i do .
i am just a third party .
tts what everyone telling me tt .
i have no position of saying and questioning anything .
i have been telling myself tt i m just playing him and .
makin used of him to care for me .
but somehow i wanted more .
am i greedy enuff .
i dunno .
my mind is in a whirl .