hmm .
was reading my old old old blog .
when i was with raymond .
well .
seriously
if compare to raymond,
i know that this guy i have now is so much better than him .
just tt .
haiz .
after i text dar abt tt,
he din make any call her .
i think he knows what i mean ba .
seriously,
everyone says he is so nice and caring and anxious for me .
perhaps he really love me .
jsut tt that girl(kat) he yet to forget and let go .
well,
thats the case .
what is the point of getting so serious lor .
anw .
i went to the doc today .
the doc ask me to move even it is pain .
and gave me painkiller .
wanted to do another test .
but they said the earliest is mon .
so well .
again,
have to wait .
is dar really going to meet tt girl tmr?
seriously,
i dun wish so .
but if he insists,
i think i could do nth lor,
i guess dar wun have anything for me at all ba .
he will feel it is a waste of money .
but .
its our first valentine tgr .
haiz .
i dunno lah .
perhaps will be our last .
somehow i will go back to sg .
i dunno lah .
i alrdyx tell myself not to think so much liao lor .
but somehow .
i still hope for something miracle to happen to me .
haiz .
tdy is my daddy bday .
2 yrs i nvr celebrate his bday with him .
i reali miss those days our family used to have .
how good will it be .
if neither of us (i mean my bros and me lah) nvr grow up,
at least the five of us will be forever happy .
haha .
but it is impossible de lah .
dar is finishing his work in an hr time .
haiz .
this is the first time i call my bf by his name and not dar or dear or baby or what .
haiz .
felt weird lah .
perhaps tts the way it shld be ba .
tmr starting work le .
sianz lor .
but no choice .
scared tmr very bz cause sat and its v day .
oh ya .
its black fri .
well .
at this point nth bad happen to me ba .
just tt .
dar purposely move my leg away .
and i am fucking screaming away lor .
haiz .
he so bad lah .
always lk to tease me de lor .
boo .
but i love him just tt way .
hee.