i feel like going back to singapore.
i dunno .
but dar dar dun wan me to go back .
he hopes me to stay .
but .
why .
he likes to lie to me again and again .
i gave him chance again and again .
but he nvr cherish the chances i gave him .
i cried in his hse ytd
at this point of time,
i really want to give up .
give up on him .
duan tong bu ru chang tong .
really .
perhaps this will be the best way for both .
i dunno .
sometimes i wonder .
if i nvr come uk,
perhaps i and wq is happily engaged or what now .
everything is perfect .
just because i came here .
wq and i brk up .
he promised to wait for me to go back .
but why .
why every guy like to brk their promises to me .
why every guy like to say empty promises .
why every guy like to make me love them and then brk my heart like nobody business .
why .
why .
i want to go back .
at least it is the only way i could give up on him .
cause facing him everyday ,
he will try to make me laugh .
i dunno .
i am so confused .
i reali hope to run away from him .
i dun wan to hear his voice .
i dun wan to see his face .
i told him ytd not to treat me nice ,
at least i have a reason to give up .
but he just hugged me very tight .
regardless what i mention .
i then told him .
if u dun let me go tonight,
u are not going to let go forever .
he kept quiet and just hugged me tight .
i dunno .
he doesn't talk anything out from his heart .
i have been always guessing and guessing .
TIRED .
i decided to abort this little one .
and i have confirmed .
i will arrange a date soon .
without letting him know .
cause he said if i have,
we will marry immediately and no delay .
but i dun wan to have this kind of marriage .
so i will abort .
tata .
to wq, u take good care .
we are the history .
i dunno whether can we be future .
but definitely not the present .
u dun think too much .
wish u all the best in everything u do .