probably .
i should silent brk with him .
cause i bear to leave him in open .
probably .
i will go back to sg quietly .
probably .
that will be the best thing for me to do .
i have ask 5 ppl for advise .
all ask me to leave him .
he is a funny guy .
but .
i really cannot bare to .
probably when i go back sg,
i will forget about him totally .
probably .
i wun tell him when i am leaving anymore .
i will just kip silence .
my heart is dead .
i am just too disappointed .
and more over .
in sg,
i have plenty of frenz !!
who support me all the way .
whoo .
as for my little one .
ii will abort it .
sorry little one .
i will wait till my leg is better,
then arrange for abortion .
and will save some money for studies and go back !
probably not soo fast lah !
need sometimes .
probably,
i will just treat as i play with him .
its so nice to play with someone .
if i managed to pass this round,
in the future if there is anything happening,
i think i will cope myself .
cause i cannot rely on ppl anymore .
grow up girl .
be strong .
or probably i should confront the girl .
but xy said its not the girl's fault,
the problem lies wit him .
cause if this girl dun exist,
probably,
there will be coming out A, B, C girls in the future .
i dunno .
and ultimately,
i want to have my own family,
and if he cannot give me my expectations,
he is not the guy i want .
i am in a lost .
but anw ,
dunno why so many ppl ask me to go back this week .
lols!!!!!
i am so happy,
so happy that my frenz din abandon me even i left sg and came here .
glad to have true frenz ard me .
like wht mdm long said,
i deserve a better guy .
i want a better guy .
yes,
he treats me nice,
but so what.
he dun even know who he loves,
what is the point of going on .
so probably,
at this moment,
i will just kip quiet .
just take is as normal .
till a day,
i want to leave uk,
then on that day,
i will tell him .